xmas vacation

Vacation time is here once again! I have no plans, unfortunately. I would love to go some place warm, like Hawaii! But, alas we are staying here! Thats ok, I plan to veg for the next two weeks! I have to work 2 days this week, then im off to do nothing! YEAH!

Nails

I want to go to school to be a nail tech. The husband says I cant right now, so instead of going to school to learn, I decided to try it out on my own! Not too bad, I did my sisters (twice) and only one of my hands! Ppl at church saw what I did and volunteered to be my ginny pigs too! :o) Practice makes perfect ya know~

Weather

ok so for the last 2 winters, it has snowed and snowed and snowed some more, we couldnt wait till all the snow was gone and now that it is winter again it seem somehow weird with no snow! It has been raining and raining and raining! I just hope this means we will be busy all winter long with ppl needing gutters! x our fingers!

14 Years Later

Sunday, mu husband and I celebrated 14 years of marriage! Time sure has flown by! I would of never imagined that it would of passed so quickly! To celebrate we went xmas shopping, and then to costco for food shopping then off to the regular market to buy the remaining items we couldnt get at costco. He made me our anniversary dinner, STEAK, potatoes, broccoli, and a roll! YUMMY! Then we retired to the bedroom to watch the season finally of survivor! All in All a very good day!

! feeling !

Where are all my friends? I mean my real friends, not just acquaintances... I feel lost, Its the holidays and I feel like I am not wanted by anyone except family! I never get invited to anyone's home, or holiday partys~ Am I alone in this feeling? I think that feelings are WAY over rated! I hate them!

Life

I feel like I am at the cross roads in my life, I feel like I havent accomplished any thing real in my life... I feel like I dont have a real career, I dont have a real life! Why am I feeling like this? I feel as if my age is becoming more important, more real, more indefant! I feel like life has an ending and before I go there to my end, I want my life to mean something, I want to be someone special, I want to be recongnized!

Book Writing

I have started my first book. I am excited, I hope this is the first of many! I want to take a writing class in college, but I dont see where I will be able to make the time! Life is so busy! Just adding more and more~!

Car Wreck

YUP, thats right! I was involved in yet another car accident! This time I wasnt driving, it doesnt matter cause once again it wasnt our fault! It was a rear end! My back hurts, my hips hurt, my shoulder hurts! WHY ME? I am like a freakin magnet here, ppl keep running me over..... HEY PPL STAY THE HECK AWAY FROM ME AND MY CAR!

Gramma

I got bad new the other day! My gramma wasnt feeling well so they took her to the doctors, turns out her heart has a leak and its back washing into her lungs! They recommended a doctor in the phoenix, AZ hospital, she saw him, they admitted her in the hospital to give her a medicine that would help dry up her lungs to breathe better.... BUT, (and yes there is a BIG BUT) they did other tests and discovered that her heart valve is working over time and she needs it replaced ASAP! They said she wasnt going to live without the surgery... they said she might not live til monday when the surgery is! I am distrot! This is my last gramma, she is MY gramma! We are really close and have always been that way ever since I was a baby! She is mine and I dont know what I will do if she passes away! Mom and dad left today to go see her and be by her side for the operation! She has so much life in her, i hope this isnt the end! I have been praying for her, and I know im not the only one. Life just wont ever be the same again if she isnt here in my life!

Holidays

Im so happy the holidays are here! I love this time of year! All the decorations are up, pretty Christmas lights, the holiday music will be starting on Friday. Now time to start thinking about Christmas presents. I was in Ben Franklin in Monroe, WA... They have the best scrap booking supplies around! So I did a little Christmas shopping for my sister there... (shh dont tell her)! I am thinking of gifts to give the kids, I have no ideas! Oh well, Im sure something will come up! Cant wait!

Im back

I know its been forever since I have blogged! Well I am here to say that I am back and better than ever! I took a break cause I was very over loaded but all is well now! ;o)

oshkosh part 1

We had the best trip ever! My family and pathfinder group went to Oshkosh, Wi for the NAD camporee, that happens only once every 5 years. What an experience it was. We started out on the journey on Aug. 6, 2009 and headed away from Idaho! We didnt make it very far when we had to stop at walmart in missoula, MT to buy a new portable dvd player for the kids! back on the road, we hit a BAD storm in the middle of MT. HAIL as big as dimes, pounding our truck and trailer and all the gear we were hauling. It was so loud and noisy that it was hurting my ears. I was never so happy to get out of that storm. we later heard that it got much worse. We made it to Wyoming the first night. We slept at a tailer park, and headed out once again brignt and early. We decided that we were going to stop in S. dakota and see the awesomeness that is MT. RUSHMORE!

weight loss

I am happy to report that I have lost a total of 14 pounds since july 1st! I am so happpy! Its just melting off! Its so wonderful! I have quite drinking pop and coffee and I believe that this is helping!

Weight loss

OK so I crashed my last "diet" so now I am back on the wagon and giving it a go again! I have lost 6 lbs already. My goal is one 1 lb a day! So far so good. I have joined a race training class, and so far I have missed the last 3 classed due to my stupid ankle. I have been so busy that I was just waling and it rolled over and I snapped a tend end! NOT A HAPPY MOMENT! Anyhow I cant wait to get back on my feet and start running again! This weight HAS GOT TO GO!!!!!

Numbers

A lot has been happening since I blogged last so lets see if I can't catch it all up here at once!

1-Child had chicken pox,(aaron) its all healed but we will see if anyone else gets them! No one else in the family has had them except me! So I guess time will tell.

4-days of VBS !I am loving VBS!!! I am the leader this year. I have enjoyed it. I wrote the program this year! Been a great experience! Today is my second day of VBS and I am not stressed at all! I guess I have ppl for that. :o)

8- days since I have started my training class! I am going to be in a race on Sept. 27! I love the class and I am excited about the race!

3- more days till I leave on a vacation for a long weekend, to go see my best friend, April.

23- days till we leave for Oshkosh... that is Brett, Aaron and I. We will be hauling all the equipment across the country for the pathfinders and will meet them there! This will be Byrons and Darrins first time on a BIG plane. Their uncle Eric has taken them up in a small airplane and showed them the sights of Walla Walla... so I am a little nervous about letting them go without me. Aaron has NEVER been on a plane and wants to fly with his brothers but I dont feel comfortable about doing that at ALL!

47- days til school starts for the kids. I am getting anxious about it but then also not so much. The kids are not going to the SDA school this year. They will be going to public this year. We just cant pull it off this year with me going to school (so I can make decent money) and with the crappy ecomony.

2 1/2- months before I start school. I wish that I was doing it this summer so when this kids go back to school I was headed off to work.

6- of the most wonderful pathfinder staff EVER! I love each and everyone of them. This year started out a little rocky but has turned out to be great. I am really looking forward to next year. Greg and I are already planning out the calendar for next year.

10- Darrin was off to camp for 10 days, Normally you go for 7 (a week) but this year our family left to go rock climbing and we couldnt take Darrin so he got to stay at a friends house who lives next door to camp. He LOVES camp now. I was worried about him. :o) He went to adventure camp at Camp Mivoden.

10- Byron will be gone from us for 10 days too. He will stay with his Auntie Becca this upcoming weekend and then off to camp all next week. The family is going camping in southern Idaho and wont be back in time to see him off to camp. So he is staying behind. He will be attending Camp Mivoden, Junior II.

18- more days til the chicken pox hybernation is over.... so we are hoping that this is the case. I dont know what we are going to do if Brett gets them! I cant drive across the country by myself. Pray for us!

15 years- I have been with my Love now for 15 years! WOW! Its gone way fast. We will celebrate our anniversay in December and it will 14 years of Marriage.

6- Every 6 weeks I HAVE to dye my hair. I have a plethora of gray hair.... its seems to be most prevalent in the front of my head! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH! I have been reduced to doing it at home cause I cant afford the $100 that it costs to do my hair.

TOO MANY days since I last saw my baby Niece V. Cant wait to see her again. Hopefully it will be before she is walking or starting school...hehehe.

38

More days till we leave for Oshkosh~ YEAH!

Rock climbers

This weekend we went rock climbing and Byron and Aaron got to climb for the first time, they had a blast. Byron is a natural at it and loves it. Aaron is afraid of heights so he climbed a little ways they FREAKED out about going any hire and wouldnt lean back to repel back down, which resulted in his daddy yelling at him, I yelling at his daddy and grampa yelling at the both of us! LOL all in all, it was good. He learned to relax and loosen us and repel by the time we left! Fun weekend. I have a popped blisted from beleighing all weekend. I enjoyed it though. Cant wait till spring when the pathfinders do it.

Camp

I have been trying to get Darrin to go back to camp. He had a bad experiece there (water in his ears, painful) and refused to go, until this year when he annouced that he wanted to go back again, he is there this week having a blast (i hope). He is taking skate boarding (his favorite thing to do), mt. biking, and gymnastics. He will be fine, im sure of it!

Purse

Its been a crazy month in June... Had my purse stolen right out of my car in the garage, they used it and have since then been caught! That made me happy, but the hassle of a new drivers license, now ids for the kids, and replaced my checking account, new glassed, new purse, new credit cards, new everything.... what a pain. I have learned my lesson and will NEVER EVER EVER leave my purse in the car again! I guess something valuable came of this! However I wasnt the only robbed... serveral ppl in the surrounding areas were also robbed! When the guys were caught (no details yet of how this came to be) they were caught with LOTS of stolen property. They are in sooooooo much trouble. God is good, and he took care of our family. It could of been much worse like if they came into the house! I am glad that God protected us!

HIGH SPEED

We finally got high speed internet here in way out in ATHOL.... I am so happy! Dial up SUCKS! I can surf the interet and do everything in no time flat! its AWESOME! I have been on hulu... the most amazing web site! You can watch shows that you missed! I love high speed! :o)

Birthdays

Well all of my boys have had their birthdays now... this weekend we celebrated 2 of the kids birthday with friends and family. My little baby is now 7! Holy cow when did that happen? It was like the other day that I was in labor and delivered the most wonderful baby! All my boys are wonderful and wouldnt trade them for anything...I just cant believe that my oldest is 11, the middle son is now 10 and the youngest 7! Where has the time gone? Flew by so fast!

Sing Language

This weekend we had a sign language specialist come to pathfinders and teach the kids the sign language, they really enjoyed it. I too loved it, I started to learn sign language when I was in grade school and have always had an interest in it... Glad to have family members who are willing to be patient with me and teach it to me too! :o)

GASHED

So its been a while since my boys have needed to go to the hospital or needed any kind of medical attention so Darrin decided that it MUST be time to go again. On Sabbath April 11th. We came home for a nap after church and while Brett, Aaron and I were asleep, Darrin decided to play basket ball in the back yard. While doing so he hit his head on a piece of metal and gashed his head open really bad. He came in the house bleeding and crying (of course). Byron came running in waking us up tell us that his brother was bleeding and we were needed. After that it was a mad dash to the urgent care where he received 13 stitches and now an ugly looking forehead! I was never so happy to be home at the right moment when the kids needed us. We were planning on leaving the 2 older ones behind that night when we went to put our last performace on for the Easter play. God works in mysterious ways... he also prevented Darrin from cutting his eye... he was really close to getting it... Kids are a danger to them selves even when they are just playing ball!!! :o)

Love

I am happy! I went home yesterday (after it was 63 degrees!! YES!!!) and soooooo much snow had melted, I can see LOTS of dirt now, today is suppose to be warm just like yesterday and I am looking forward to that. I LOVE the sun. I had S.A.Ds and I ache for the sun all winter long. So while it is here I am soaking it in. I cant wait to garden. This summer the boys and I will have a vege garden (or at least attempt one). This day is looking up already! :o)

250

Yesterday was the pinewood derby and boy was it ever fun! The kids had a blast, our club dominated in the categories. We as a club were able to sell food to raise money for Oshkosh... We sold 250 corn dogs plus pop... We made almost $400 YEAH!!! IT was a good turn out.

SUN SHINE!!!!!

Oh it is finally here! Oh happy days the snow is melting, so fast! I can see patches of DIRT! I am waiting to landscape because of all the snow, Once its gone, I will have the most wonderful yard ever! It will have GRASS! :o)

Bible words

I was uplifted this Sabbath. Most of the time when I am at church I want to go to sleep, leave or do what ever else besides be there, but this Sabbath was different. Our pastors just game back from Europe where they learned all about the church history. This Sabbath was relayed to us some of when they learned (and there was even a slide show :o) ). He talked about what the Waldencensing when through and how they use to teach the kids ( as little as 4) to memorize the bible. Today the pastor doesnt even have John 3:16 memorized... How sad. Its true though, we need to teach our kids to memorize the Bible and to hold it dear to them, I have decided to teach the kids to memorize the book of John. We started last night with John 1:1 and every night we are going to work on adding to it, one verse at a time, on verse per day!

Teaching

OK so I took a class about a year ago on how to be a good parent... It was helpful and I learned a lot. The kids were behaving, being respectful, nice wonderful little boys, then it happened, I stopped using the tools they gave us. Now I cant remember them and am having a HORRIBLE time with the kids... they dont listen, they talk back, they are rude crude and little monsters who take advantage of EVERYTHING! My friend told me about her system that she made up and it has been working wonders with her boys, so today I gave it a shot... oh man oh man are the kids pissed at me..... They way you start off is you take everything away that is a privileged to have ie... computer, TV, Games, etc... To say the least the kids were REALLY bad this morning they thought that their world had ended! This is a point system, if they can impress me, they get a point, if they are unruley mean and crabby, dont listen, talk back, etc they loose a point... We have put each item in a catagory from least important to most important 1-8 on the list and they are not going to get that privilege back until they earn it back with points and they have to have 10 points per item to get it back! Its going to be rough going at first I know this, but for the long haul It will be the best for everyone! Including them....lol. Wish me luck! I am horrible at being consitant and this is what I need to work on the most. The kids are the way they are because os ME!!! I take on this responibility, but now I am going to make it right. Ihave to do this inorder for next year to work. The kids are going to public schools next year and I need them to know HOW to behave and how to have respect for authority! Oooooh the joys of parenthood!

Palup

My dad went to get an exam today and they found a palup (sp?). They removed it and now are testing it for cancer! What is going on? My parents are falling apart, I guess it comes with age, but I dont like seeing.

11

It has been 11 days since Spring arrived... but I am still seeing it snow outside.... I was told today that from now on, each winter will be worst than the last... I sure hope that isnt true. I ache for the sunshine, I yearn for the warmth light to heat my cold body. I want to play in the grass in my bear feet, I want to swim in the shimmering lake calling to me, COME! I want to be out in the fresh air, soaking up the fresh breeze on my face. Laughing, playing, and having a grand time in the out doors, WHEN WILL COME? I am afraid not soon enough.

Summer Vacation

It has been decided that I will not start school until September 2009. I will work the shop until the kids are out of school then have the whole summer with the kids... I am excited to have the summer off!

Phone

Oh my goodness... My MINT CHOCOLATE DIED... again....So Brett and I went to the Verizon store and they had a special on Black berrys buy one get one free.... We were told that we both had upgrades available and money available to buy the phones, we took them up on it.. so today both Brett and I own new black berrys ...we are happy... NICE! Nice to have a reliable phone today! :o)

Trusting

Today I am uplifted by a dear friend and family member... Her words ring true as I read them. I know she is right, I need to trust GOD and cling to him with all my might... I have been trying to do this... I trust that God knows what he is doing and what is best for me. I want to feel all my worries disappear... I want to feel secure. I need GOD more than ever... WE need to have him on our side or should I say we need to be on his side in this time of terror that we are all experiencing. The horrible one, the vicious one, the one who makes all of our lives miserable MUST be defeated. We must stand AGAINST him, STAND UP for what is right, HOLD on tight to others who believe and not let them falter... for those who have we need to go to them, take them by the hand and urge them to come back, pray for them, pray for those who have abandoned you, pray for those who have disgusted you, pray for those who have hurt you. In this time we need to stick together, mend broken families, mend the hearts, minds and soles so we all can live in peace together in Heaven. Remember he said IF YOU HAVE DONE IT TO THE LEAST OF THESE, YOU HAVE DONE IT UNTO ME! We need to forgive, trust GOD, and love only him!

Not selling

Well as it turns out, we cant afford to sell the house after all. If we were to sell right now with the way the economy is we would end up still owing money on the house and not having a house, so now we are looking for the next best option... selling everything else... But at least for now I get to keep the house.

Sping

Oh man... it is the 5th day of spring and it has continuously snowed everyday! What is going on? Its cold, snowy, and miserable!

MADNESS

I was told yesterday that "I am leaving the church"... LOL! WHAT? OMG the person who started this rumor is a hypocrite~ They believe that they are better than anyone else and that they are above it all.... HOG WASH!!! If you are reading this blog and you are the one who started this..... I AM MADDER than hell at you!!!! BE WARE!

Signing

Today was the day for signing up the house, thankfully (for me) the Realtor was sick today and is unable to sign it up! We are trying to decide what to do, Sell off all of the "toys" we own and NEVER use, to try to go to another bank for another try at getting the house refinanced! Trusting in GOD is what I am lacking in... I am trying really hard to understand his devine hand in this.... Maybe that is what his plan is... to get us to rely on him purely!

Harry Potter

I am currently listening to Harry Potter and the Half Blood Prince CD... Its much easier to listen to the story while at work since I dont have time to read 3" books! I am 1/2 way done and cant wait to see movie coming out this summer! I am also in need to re-watch the last movie to remind myself what happened last time! I dont think that I will be taking the 2 younger children to see the new movie however... THE last one was scary for Darrin ! I did how ever leave the the littlest one with his daddy when we went to see it!

OUTRAGED

OUTRAGED is only the beginning, Sadness, sickened, pissed and many other feelings are starting to emerge... The economy is so bad here that I am forced to sell our new home. I DONT want to leave my custom home that my husband just built for me...Why is this happening to me? God placed us here in our new home and now its being taken away along with out lively hood! THIS SUCKS!

Braces and Retainers

It is offical... Darrin had his braces removed last week and is now in a retainer... I hope he takes better care of it than Byron did. :o) The orthodonist said that Byron needs to come back in around a year from now for a FULL set of braces. Then when Byron will finally be done will be Darrin and Aarons turns to be in them too! I should of been an orthodontist. LOL!!!!

Spring?

Only 3 more days til spring and yet it was still snowing at my house this morning... Not a lot, but still it was SNOWING!!! What in the world.... I see people out buying trees, plants and other yard items... I am so jealous.. I dont even see my yard... there is still like 2+ feet of snow. I so desperately want to garden and fix up my yard.... When will SPRING really be here???

35 days

YUP thats right... 35 more days and I am off to start a new career. It will be sad to see the business finally closed and yet at the same time a relief. 30 days until the doors are closed... Its been weird... we told my parents that we are closing the doors, but my dad wont have it. He is trying someway for it NOT to happen. Oh well, I gotta do what I gotta do!

Lump

I found out last night that my mom found a lump in her breast. She went to the DR and they are sending her to get a mammogram and then to see the surgeon at the end of this month. Our family has a HIGH risk of cancer and I am worried that is what she has. She has already had cancer (or the start of it) in her uterus. Now this, I hope and pray that she is ok.

Borrowed Tomb

I and my family are in a play this EASTER weekend... April 10th & 11th. The times are as follows
April 10th @ 7PM
April 11th 10:45AM and 7PM

I am so excited... I want all my friends to come! :o)

Baby Mama

Not too long ago I yearned to have another tiny baby to call my own... Now I am happy that I dont! Dont get me wrong, I love babies, but they are a lot of work and I forgot that part. I have been watching a baby for 2 weekends in a row for all day and over night too. I am TIRED!!! I like getting 10 (well if im lucky 8) hours of sleep. I need sleep to function... I miss the baby when he goes home, But glad to see him go too! :o)

Its Offical

Today we decided that we are done... We are closing the shop... I have had a good run of 7 years but just cant make it work with the way the economy is right now. I have about 6 weeks to sell all my material in the shop and to close the doors before I go to school on April 21st. When one door closes another opens and for me right now, its school. I will be in school for 3 months and then have a whole new career. I will be a nail tec. I will be making more money doing that part time then I do now working full time. Pray that it all goes well.

Mafia Wars

I found this new game on facebook, Mafia Wars... I am so addicted to it. I play it every chance that I get. I sit at work all day playing this game (in between my customers) I go home and play this game, I think about it and cant wait till the next time I play..... Ohhh I am so addicted, BUT ITS FUN!!!! (and Im so bored at work)!

Detox

This is the month that I am going to loose more weight... I have successfully kept the 20 pounds off that I lost awhile back, so now its time for more. Summer is coming, I bought a new bikini and I want to look H-O-T in it... starting today I am off POP (I have a head ache already!), candy (what am I going to eat for snack?) meat (I am going to DIE!!!) and I'm going to start drinking water (well thats not so bad), exercising ( I can do that) and eating better.... I want to look good when I die, so I guess I had better start while I am still alive! :o)

Program

This April 10 & 11 my family is in a play... an Easter play to be exact. I have never really ever acted or been in a play since grade school and I only did 2 plays even then. I am loving it. I have a solo that I have to sing, I get to act and my lines are short so there isnt a lot that I have to memorize. Its great! I would like to see all my family and friends there.... Hope they arent busy that day! :o)

Tired

Oh my word.... I am so tired today. I started down loading itunes last night at 4PM and it was finally finished at 1AM this morning.... I am glad thats over!

ITUNES

Ok, so yesterday my oldest son desides that he wants to buy a ipod with his hard earned money... We went to Best Buy (which I love by the way) and got him a lime green 16GB nano. He was so excited and wanted to put music on it right away, well as it turns out we have to download the newest and latest verson for us to do that.... so now I have attemped 3 times (hopefully this is the last) of getting the new verson. I am getting mad at it. I have dial up (which is another problem in itself) so it takes like 7 hours to do this.... ANNOYING, TIME CONSUMING and FRUSTRATING... it so far what this amounts to.

81

Today we celebrated my grandma 81st birthday... I only hope that one day I will be her age and as fun, out going, and still can live on my own like her.... She has a memory that I envy... She is the worlds best grandma ever... :O)

Oshkosh

All day today I was on the computer, phone and doing what I could to figure out how we are going to get 23 people to Oshkosh for the camporee. We want to take a bus but that cost $13,755 for 47 passenger... I dont have that many people, so now am currently looking for passengers too!

Taxes

Uuuggghhh! Its that time of year where I am scrambling to get all my paper work finished up, added, sorted, and put into the correct category... I HATE this time of the year, its like Christmas for those who cant stand it... I wish I had someone to do it for me.... I dont even care that I might get a rebate... I still hate paper work... couple more hours (I hope) and I will be done!

The JOYS of music

I am so excited!!!! I went home last night and wrote more of my song... I actually wrote out the notes, of the melody. I have this song stuck in my head for days now... I love it. It from my feelings, my heart, my sole.... It has meaning (well at least to me). I cant wait to share the song to see what others think of it...

Forgiveness

My heart has been healed today... Forgiveness is a wonderful, but a scary thing also. I have been carrying around a heart full of pain and today it was lifted...

My Rights

YES! I was a little worried about my rights to my song that I wrote for the camporee.. I had to sign them away...But now since they didnt pick it for the theme song, I just got confirmation that my rights have my restored!!! ITS MINE to do what ever it is that I see fit! I am excited, cause I am thinking that I might look into... maybe seeing if I can publish it! :o)

In the MOOD

I got an inspiring email from a friend today, made me want to write songs again... I came home, sat at the piano and VIOLA!!! I n0w have a new song... it still needs tweaking, but I am so happy. It made me happy to be able to put my feelings down and sing the blues!!!

New Career

I am thinking of going in a whole new direction... I am tired of working here... Its hard, the ppl are nasty (customers) they are hard to get paid from, and I am constantly stressed out.... I dont need it. What I need is a job that I can make real money from, where I still have the flexibility to do what I want, and have fun at it...

So I have decided that I am going to go to school to be come a nail tec. I just have to figure out what I am going to do with my current business. If I quit completely, then my parents and husband cant work (they buy from only me). Do I hire someone to run it? The last time I tried this, I end up missing stuff....

Ah the joys of insanity!

Courage to Stand

This summer there was a contest at the NAD head quarters asking ppl to write the new theme song for the upcoming NAD camporee. I have written songs before and thought, I know I can do this... so I prayed and asked GOD to help me write a song. Within a matter of minutes I had the words... They came to me plain and clear. I know that I was GOD sending them to me.

COURAGE TO STAND

Here I am Lord
Use My Strength
For what you need
Use me

Give me the courage
To stand up for you
Here I am Lord
USE ME

GIVE ME THE COURAGE
TO stand like Esther,
Courage to stand like Daniel
Courage to stand like JESUS
I want to be just like them
I want to be just like him
For you lord.

When GOD calls me to
Stand up for him
He'll be there
I know

GOD gives me the courage
To stand up for him
He'll never leave me
ALONE!

GIVE ME THE COURAGE
To stand like Esther,
Courage to stand like Daniel
Courage to stand like JESUS,
I want to be just like them
I want to be just like him...

FOR YOU LORD!

I thought this was a GOD sent... Next I went to the piano, sat down for about an hour and had the music, I know I couldnt of done this with GODs help....

I was super excited about what I had just done. I was a little scared to sing it by myself so I got the best team of singers together (Bill Meyerholtz, Leah Meyerholtz, Greg Clark, Lou Ann Henneberg, and myself) and we poured out heart and sole into this song. It has a wonderful harmony.... They did a wonderful job. We recorded the song, wrote the music out, and sent it on its way to Andrews University, MI...

We decided that even if we werent picked the winners for the theme song that we would at least perform it at church for Pathfinder Sabbath. The church family was so supportive, Its a sure winner, they said,. Great SONG, Its a GOD sent they said..... WELL.................

I guess it wasnt as good as we all thought, or at least thats what the leaders who were in charge of the theme songs thought... Because I am no longer in the running to win theme song. They have selected the top 10... and I believe that the top 10 arent very good... ONLY TWO songs are even good... I dont know what they were thinking... Anyhow, I guess I was too proud, to big for my britches (as my grandma says) maybe its GODS way to show that I need to come back to earth for a little while longer... Maybe he stiill has plans for the song!
I really dont know, All I do know is I am sore, sad, and sour about the whole thing now. I guess I am a bad looser... never knew that until today! :o(

If you would like a copy of the song, I would be happy to send you one!