Heart break

My life seems to be headed in a downward spiral. I have been wrong by people that I thought that I could trust and were my friends. Where is my purpose? Where do I belong? I feel like I was forgotten and left behind. Use, abused and left for dead. How can people be so mean and uncaring? Why is it me, that seems to find them? I have a big heart and I give it away just to be handed back to me in a million pieces. WHY? My heart is crying out for relief. When will it come? People walk by every day not noticing the pain in my eyes and heart. I'm on the edge of falling apart. I can only handle so much rejection and hurt. My heart has been trampled on with razor blades and expected to remain in tact. SERIOUSLY? How the hell? This is HELL!!! I have been in HELL for months, for years. When will it end? This is the beginning of the end. I need my life back. It has been taken from me by those who call me, friend. REALLY? 'Im your friend? PROVE IT! I have no friends. No one cares, no one REALLY cares whether I live or die. Would you miss me if I disappeared? NO, you wouldn't. Don't lie to make yourself feel better. If you were truly my friend, you would know my pains and be there for me. I feel abonded. Left out in the cold to freeze. The only relief I feel is knowing that one day GOD will take me away from the grief and pain. I will NEVER EVER have to deal with heartless, cruel people. He cant come soon enough. I pray in earnest for his return. To take me away from the ever lasting pain. The pain that plagues my life and my existence. I thank GOD for my family. Without my wonderful husband to carry me through the hardest times in my life I would never had made it this far. He has been my rock. My solid, firm foundation. I love him with my whole being, with everything that I am.