Proud Mama

I am as proud as a peacock.... my boys have decided to follow Jesus, they are getting baptized!!!! The special date is April 17th! All who know the boys are invited to come and join in our special day!

Home

I am so glad.... My mom, dad and gramma are all home! YEAH! They arrived home yesterday afternoon. My gramma looks so frail and fragile. She went through her surgery like a champ and she said she was never in any pain. Thats good news!

Its a GOD thing

We have begun selling our worldly prossesions... this included our Ford Truck.... Brett put it on craigslist.com and POOF it was sold in less than 10 min!!! That was a God thing for sure.... We have put it on Craigs list during the summer and we got a few calls on it, but no one wanted it, and Brett said this time he just felt like he needed to put it on! I was so surprised, I saw him list it and then a few mins later he said it was sold, I said "nuh uh" and he said he wasnt lying that it was really sold! What an amazing GOd we have!

So HAPPY

OK so I stared out the last week with BAD news and by the end of the week I was on a high. I was debating on weather or not I should close my doors to my business or what to do, then the work started pouring in and now I am riding on a high that I think things will all work out. I am Very Thankful and Happy about it! :o) I hate to loose and hate to give up so for me to concede to failure is very VERY hard for me! Glad its not right now! :o)

Parents

We as parents have a responsibility to tell our children the dangers of life. One of the dangers in life would be SEX! If we dont prepare our child and prep them NOT to have sex before marriage or at least teach them to wait, they wont! We need to tell them the dangers of sleeping around... Pregnancy, diseases, the emotional instability you will have once you start and are not old enough to handle it! PARENTS wake the hell up, talk to your kids, even if you think that its embarrassing.... whats worse, a 15 min talk or grandkids? IF you think its not all the bad, watch 16 and pregnant..... make your teens watch it! Show the reality of having sex and getting pregnant!!!! This is my peeve! Dont ignore the situation.... TALK TO YOUR KIDS!

Pathfinders

Recently I have begun to question weather I should be in pathfinders or not. Is it really worth it? Is this where God wants me? I have decided that I will stick out this year and decide on next year later. If God really wants me there, It will be obviously. But how am I suppose to be a good leader when I am being watched a mistake? There are some waiting for me to fail. Watching for me to fall. I know God is with me, watching over me, taking care of me. But as a human, can I but help to fail.

Work

I am beginning to think that this might be my last year.... the economy is so bad right now that I am having a hard time keeping the doors open. No work = no money = no bills being paid! I am a little sad that my business of 7 1/2 years might come to an end but at the same time, kind of relieved that I wont have to work every day and struggle every day to make this work.... so we will be seeing , but if the numbers continue they way they are , we wont be able to keep the doors open. :o(

Buring

Oh my goodness.... I spent all day yesterday working out in the yard. We are selectivly clearing our property. Brett spent the day cutting and liming the trees while the boys and I built two HUGE fires and burnt acres of wood! It was fun, and the end result looks great, but this morning I woke up and my back hurts so bad today! aaaaah! Time for a muscle relaxer and a hot tub! :o)

Fruits of the Spirit

In my Sabbath school class, we have been studying the fruits of the spirit. First we studied about Joy, Peace and this last week Kindness. I have realized that every week, I can relate to the message we are talking about to my current situation. Kindness.... its easy to be kind to a person who you like, but try being nice to someone who has mistreated you, spit in your face, calling you a liar, and who has no respect for you! Thats where I am today.Trying my hardest to be the person God wants me to be! Trying to do what he would do. I would not be able to do this without asking for his help!

smile???

How do you smile and find joy in the midst of adversity? The bible says you can find joy and peace in the middle of it all. I have found that I have to ask God daily for the peace. Peace isnt natural to me. I tend to be in the middle of a crisis every time I turn around! I hope this is making me a strong person. I hope there is an end game for all the troubles that I have been put through. My life has been turned up side down since I was 12! When i was 14...finally i thought my life was changing for the good, then poof.... we lost everything, had to move into a 24' trailer....moved to Idaho, had no friends, no money, no home, nothing. It was scary. Then I got married at 17! I thought my life was going finally be perfect... got pregnant with our first baby and then once again it turned for the worse... I lost the baby, went into DEEP depression, the fighting started, the screaming, the hitting, the hurtfulness took over my life. I wished my life would of eneded then but God had other plans for me. I have since then had 4 more babies. I have had to work and struggle like hell in my marriage. My husband is in construction and one day we got robbed! They stole ALL the tools. WHAT NOW? How do we make a living? I got in a my car accident.... life took a toll for the worse, I couldnt get out of bed. I was badly hurt, on pain meds and then the depression hit me again. On a daily basis I thought about how to end my life. Would any one miss me? Now I am taking antidepressants and I feel 100% better... I have a wonderful family and God has taken me through it all. so Why now do I find myself in yet another HUGE mess??? A screaming parent, telling me that I am NOT doing my job well, that I act like a teenager... My life has been one HUGE roller coaster hill, ups and downs. When can I get off this ride. When will it ever end? DO I have to wait for Heaven to really be at Peace? Why cant I have it now? I want it now? I live one day at a time... struggling with life, daily asking for Gods help to once again bring me through yet another trying day. I am jealous of the relationship that the ppl in the bible had with God. Some of them got to speak to him directly and walk with him daily. I want that kind of relationship. I want that!

REPORT CARDS

Yup thats right, 2nd quarter is over and the report cards are in! I am so proud of the kids! They worked really hard last quarter and the grades improved a LOT! We made a deal with the oldest, that if he bought all his grades up to a min. of a C then we would get him a new cell phone. Well he did it (finally) so today we are headed to VERIZON to purchase a texting phone for him. :o)

Wii

I am addicted to the wii! I LOVE IT! Every day I go home and eat lunch and play wii. I am hooked on the game NEW super mario bros. I love that its not violent, love how its very kid friendly and the levels are challenging! For me anyhow! I got 99 guys (which it the most you can get) for Darrins game. He is on the 8th level and working towards the 9th level. FUN FUN!!!!

Happy Pills

Oh wow, so I am taking "Happy Pills" ... well I ran out and wasnt able to take some for a few days, turned out I turned into a HUGE "B"!!!! I was finally able to take it this morning and viola I am all better and back to my happy self! LOL! I am so thankful for those pills. Life has been more bearable once again.

February

Its February and instead of snow, its raining and in the 40's! Who would of thought it! Not me, thats for sure. The last 2 winters have been a nightmare with loads and loads of snow and this year... nothing! Its weird how the weather works. I want to go skiing but the conditions are horrible this year and I am not about to spend $60 on a lift ticket plus gas getting there for ROCK skiing! No thank you! I missed out on the 2 best winters for skiing, so maybe after this mild winter we will have a great snow pack next winter so I can go skiing once again. I guess I better save my money!

2010

I was hoping that this year was going to be a fantastic year with lots of rewards and joy! Unfortunately it has started off very rocky! Been threatened, screamed at, punished, harassed, scared, sad, stressed, frightened, and miserable. And NONE of these things were done by family members! This all happened from ONE person. I did the right thing, I REALLY DID! But yet I am still being punished because they think I lied and wasnt a good leader or person. I did what was best for the person at the time. I have prayed every day since for PEACE! Thankfully God has granted me peace.

Happy Happy

I am getting a green house! I am so excited!!!! I wanted a garden last year but we are still working on the yard so we werent ready for a garden. But this year I will be growing my own food! YUMMY!!!! Fresh veggies and fruit! I am also going to learn to make apple sauce and can food! Its going to be a great summer! I cant wait! :o)

work

I dont know how much longer I can sit here NOT working....lol! I know that seems funny, but I come to work daily and pretty much sit on the computer all day. I hope the economy comes back up soon. If not im not sure if I will be able to hold on to the company! Boo!

Birthday

I turned 32 last week. I dont feel any older, other than my hair has taken a dramatic turn for the gray! Oh my goodness, almost the entire top of my hair is gray! I need to dye it and soon. For my birthday I got the most amazing earrings! My sister in law made them for me! If you are interested in COOL and beautiful looking earrings, leave a comment and I will pass on the info to her! Pictures will soon be posted!

w-2

Ok so, ya I'm late...I finally filed my W-2's today.... oh well, better late than never right? I am also getting caught up on all paper work so I can file my taxes! Oh the joys of tax season! BLAH!

Gutters

So my husband installs gutters! They are beautiful. Everything from Copper, aluminum, and steel to 1/2 round, 5" and 6" regular gutters! He does a fantastic job! Look him up on his web site if you need gutters! www.rainmasterraingutters.com .... you wont be disappointed!